Right...

As you may have noticed, the last three-out-of-four posts that i have put up recently have been about my life a good few years ago. The main reason behind this is that Vicky, bless her, once told me that if I could set my mind to it, I could write a damn good book. Taking that to heart, I decided to start writing up the most important part of my life, my time with the Dark Angels. I posted the first three chapters (Birth to Dark Angels, Two Weeks On, and Running A Job), and now I want to know if I should carry on posting them in between my usual ramblings, or save the rest. What do you guys think? Let me know and I'll take a vote he he ;)

Elsewhere in my life, things have improved somewhat. Sonia has creeped back into my life, and for the past two days, we have been locked in my bedroom doing...well, pretty much anything. That's what I like about Sonia, always up for a laugh, always ready to explore things. She had been keeping herself busy at uni while I toiled away with my life. She met a guy out there, but it didn't work out. It's a shame, she needs someone closer to her, sometimes I do wish it was me though...

Zoe has gone, Leigh found out about Toni and her, causing all sorts of shit to blow up. Not looking for any implications into the affair, I broke things up between us. That being said, we still talk intimately on a regular basis, and I know she has been hinting at a possible meet-up. I won't go there though, the girl, regardless of the history between us, I just don't want the drama. Too much hassle for what is a fling.

I have been seeing Harry a lot more frequently recently. He is really getting into his own now. I'm glad he has coming to terms with his sexuality. I'm also glad that I could help him explore it. I may have said this before but, well, sod it. It's nice to see a jack-the-lad be in a vulnerable situation like that. It can be a bit humbling at times though, to see such a thing. Maybe I'm just too used to used to being with more confident men.

Life has Chilton, on the other hand, has gone downhill a bit. The staff have started clamping down on us, taking a  few choice manoeuvres. I found Fie stalking the house at 11pm the other night. Scared the shit out of me. The place stunk of weed, and even though everyone in the house was out of it, including me, we all denied it. Fie was not impressed with us, but it shook us out of our comfort zone. We have all taken to going out of the property now, regardless of whether or not it's a joint, or a simple cigarette. At least we have the block of private flats round the corner, a nice little place, quite well sheltered, and quiet, you could hear a pin drop at the other end of the car park.

The guys of the house are alright. Stephen had a little bother with his finances, but he's managed to clear it up, and make a bit of cash on top. He's found himself a girl now, a nice Polish lass called Monica. He sees her nigh-on everyday. He's still meeting up with other girls though, but his relationship with Monica is along the lines of 'friends with benefits', so you can imagine what I have to block out half the time ;)

Dee, well, she's her own situation. Me and her had an intimate conversation over a smoke one evening, and she told me that she pines over her ex, who still sees her regularly. Bless her heart, chasing a guy who has admitted to her that he doesn't love her back. Ruel, the ex, is a decent bloke, but he's just not in wanting for the relationship that Dee wants. It seems almost a shame. She is such a nice person at heart, no matter the bravado.

Toni is still trying to find a way to sort herself out. In the last three weeks, she has changed her mind about all-sorts. She went girly dress mode, exercise regime, healthy eating, all went from promising starts to 'can't be arsed' ends. The girl has potential, just not the drive to step up to the plate. I don't think she will get very fer in her college course as well. I find it a shame. A glorious failure.

Aims is...god, I don't actually know what she is up to these days. All I know is that she has going out nearly every day with her mates Jade, Scott and Vic. A nice lot, but too much on the drugs. They smoke at least two ounces a day! How they can stand I do not know...

Taking into account all that has happened these last few months, I think I am better for it all. Yes, there was drama, yes, there was loss, and yes, there were good times, but I reckon I am on course again, back to how I was three/four ago, and I'm proud of that. I've done a lot recently (oh yeah, I'm thinking of joining the navy, but not for a long while yet, need to get fit first before anything), so I can say that I have turned my life around, and I can NOT wait for the day that everything in my life is in place, and that my heart can say at last: I am at peace.

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