Questioning....

I recently took on a ton of extra shifts at work due to someone leaving. At the time things were steady. After a few weeks though, Sonia decided to break up with me. She said to me that I paid more attention to work than her. She's half right. Yes I took on the extra hours, but I only did because the money involved would of meant the two of us would be able to get away at the end of the month. She also said that when things settled down a little bit in my life, we could maybe try again. The thing is, I doubt it. An old friend of hers has been sniffing aroung lately. Now that we are apart, he might just get the idea to make a move.

On the other hand though, I got what I needed. Disruption. Chaos to the order of things. It's nice to have it, yet, as other things have showed me in life, it came at a price. It always does with me. It don't feel like a karma sort of thing though. I'm not sure what it is. Maybe it's just life's way of doing things.

-.AA.-