*Sighs*...

OK...I'm not gonna lie to you. Right now, in my life, there are two people who I really want to say something to them. One of them is Sonia, a girl who I have known since I was...what? Thirteen? Anyway, I have held a candle to her for a long time now, and she knows this. God, we've tried before, but never really got off the ground, that's why we are 'FWB' at the moment. The other is Aimee. I've known, no, lived, with this girl for nigh on a year now, and I really want to tell her, but...I don't know, from the offset, she told she wouldn't get with anyone she lives with because of past experiences...still, we have a very close relationship, almost to the point where we nearly said 'fuck it' and done the deed there and then. But we didn't. Our moral values stopped us from it. Sometimes I wish it didn't. I was with her earlier tonight, we were so close together, I could almost feel her breath when she spoke to me. It sent chills down my spine. She has this thing of moulding herself against me when we are together, and it just makes me want to jump on her and do all sorts to her...god, the thought of her makes me want to take that trip...Oh, I don't know. Maybe it's just me being silly about it all. If anything, the one thing I am least experienced at is relationships. I have mountains of experience when it comes to other things...like sex, for an obvious example, just when it comes down to the relationship thing...maybe it's just my young side, unsure on rocky ground,or maybe because of my ex that I am cautious on relationships. I haven't had one since her...*sighs* well, I know I'm gonna say something to one of them soon. I can't stay silent on it for much longer. I hate holding secrets for too long. But who do I talk to? Aimee, or Sonia? The old flame, or the one who I share a roof with? Or should I just let things lie, and move on?

Hmm...I'm rambling again. O well, better out than in, I suppose...god, I hope Tiggsz don't see this, she is close to Aimee...